Honoring the Sadness

Picture courtesy of Martin Linss

What a difference a day makes. When the words of this post first found their way to paper my feelings found me in a much different place. The emotional disconnect was weaving it's way through my DNA and there wasn't much I could do to defend it. The wallowing took me by surprise and rendered me helpless to it's inflictions but my self preservation took hold just in a knick of time.

Today is a very different day and as I let the moment seize me, the smile that reaches my eyes sends sparkles ahead of me like the shooting stars you wish upon. The past is history. The future is a mystery and this moment is a gift. That's why this moment is called the present. 

With that said and my intention in tow, today finds me realizing that wishing things were different is a waste of time and energy. There is always a way to heed the lesson in the adventure and figure out a way to be happy in the sadness. Things don't always happen the way we expect them to but that's the problem with expectation, preconceived notions left to follow suit with your conjecture will leave you depleted and lost.

Sadness is vulnerable, it can seem lonely and it can leave you feeling detached, but sadness can also bring you out onto a threshold of elevation. Sadness is a state of mind and can't a state of mind be altered? Mind over matter right?

Finding the strength will help you release that which is making you sad. For me the clarity comes from my tears. My tears give me strength and they help me move on. Like the snow that covers the earth like a blanket to keep it warm for the winter, so do my tears comfort me.

The clarity shows me that the Universe gives you what you need not always what you want. Think of the things that leave your life as gifts from the Universe because it opens you up to other things and shows you new perspectives in your growth. Welcome the change and embrace where your road will take you next. Skip forward and don't look back.


A little reminder never hurts either...

There has to be a window

So you can see past the waters edge

A wondrous rainbow of color awaits you,

If you just believe in what’s been said

If you listen to your heart

The words can speak in volumes

But you can’t fear the past

That’s been leaving you unraveled

The unknown is where

The answers are revealed

If you can keep the faith

In the truths that are concealed

Open up the lid 
of your life unlived

And all your truest passions

Will come rushing to be fulfilled

Even though in times of trouble

it’s hard to understand

Let your life catch up to you

and gently hold your hand

Know you were made with love

in the eyes of happiness and glory

And know that you were meant to be

A happily Ever After kind of story








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Endurance

I just don't have much to say right now.  I am busy prepping a commercial while still in active pursuit of my endeavors and I must admit, I am exhausted. But it's time to stop looking in the rearview.  So much greatness lies ahead if I stay focussed and encouraged. I don't need to always be in 4th gear.  Time to slow it down a little and accept the path of least resistance.

I am trying really hard to take a stroll with the patience that promises reward.  It's hard for me, when my instinct is to sprint.  But I am getting better.  I know that if I continue to convince myself that there is reward in endurance I will continue to persevere.


For now, for fear of going on a narcissistic rant, I will leave you with an old writing of mine.  My words teach me too so when I am in need of some encouragement they come in handy.  Like now.

life is always changing and 
tests your strength and will
a lovely dance by moonlight
the grass, perfect and still

keep the faith in sunrise
and welcome the day
walk with your head held high
and the gifts will come your way

the universe will give to you
all that you ask 
so be strong in your intention
and unwavering at your tasks

hope is undeniable 
just let love lead your heart
always choose to be honorable
a perfect place to start

never hold ill thoughts 
or give power to your fears
Live your life with integrity
and your wishes shall appear

Live Love and Laugh
Everywhere you go 
Peace Love and Light
On you shall bestowed




~P

The W Chaser & Check in Number 7

        In the beginning I mentioned that sometimes I would share something new or something old.  When my world gets this busy I must give in to the need to stay in the moment and focus on the tasks at hand.  Deadlines approach but my wistful nature threatens to distract me.  So here is something old but not outdated and my check in number seven.

        Faith, spirituality, the Id, self vs. true self, religious, existentialist, soul-searcher, lost.

        Have we all fallen prey to a society that puts such enormous pressure on the importance of being branded, labeled, and trademarked that we feel we must do this to ourselves too?

        If so, do I have an epithet? Who am I really? I know I am not what I do or what I drive or what I wear and I am not just the name that I use to introduce myself. I know I am not a size 0 or a super model. I know I am not hungry right now because I just ate and I know that there are a lot of things about life and living that I just don’t know yet.

        I know that bad things happen to us and that children die of illnesses that we can’t cure. I know that are children in Africa walking around with rifles and that a staggering number of our nations youth don’t know how to read. I know that some things are unexplainable and painful. I know that some things make us laugh but someone else won’t think it’s funny. I know that some days will be better than others. I know that some people go through there whole lives never wondering about anything and that’s okay too.

        I’m not one of those people. I want to know things. I am what you might call the W Chaser. I want to know who, what, why, when and where of every little thing.

        If I had to give an appellation to myself, I don’t think I could give myself just one. Can’t we be more than one thing? Isn’t it relative anyway?

        Is what we are, based on a belief system that we learned from our parents, read in a textbook, or in an ad while riding the A train? Is there a chart for the system or a graph or something along the lines of the periodic table? Or are we left to devise the meaning as it pertains to us now, today, in this moment?

        Wikipedia says that a belief system can refer to a life stance, a religion, a world-view, a philosophy and an ideology. So, do we study the individual beliefs and choose one? Or can we subscribe to all of it, you know, kind of like the One World Alliance and we would get travel points.

        I’ve decided. I’m a “believer”. I am a believer in all things tangible or intangible.  A believer in a higher power, in Judaism, in God, in Kabbalah, in philosophy, in science, in Buddhism, in the Universe, in the Archangel Gabriel, in love, and in myself.

        If we believe, then we will experience the wonderment of a child, faith in change and embrace the unknown. We will have an uplifted spirit so that we might try to lift someone else's and our Id will know true balance. We will be our own-selves and we will be devoted to the greater good of purpose. We will continue our development as individuals and we will embrace our couragous manners to better ourselves as human beings. We cannot lose sight of our intentions to help make this world a better place.

        We just need to believe in our family, in our friends, in our neighbors, and in strangers.  Good-will toward others.  We need to believe that our plants will grow and the sun will shine and the fish will swim and that a smile will always brighten someone's day.  Because one person really can make a difference, if we believe in each other and in ourselves.  The potential for greatness is limitless if we just chase after our beliefs with all our might and embrace them with the love and warmth that we would use to hold a child.

        What are you chasing after?

My check in number 7:

Hard work really does breed success!  The YES's are everywhere.  Well almost. The commercial I was holding for pushed, but not a bad thing.  It opened me up to giving attention to the yes's that are happening and give them the focus and nurturing they deserve.

~ Last night I saw a working version of the website and we are really happy with it.  Today I will go through and make final tweaks before we go live this week.

~ Finished my 3rd draft of my book (Yay!) and am moving forward with my new plan.

~  Going over the final draft of the business plan today in hopes that it is ready to be released.

Fingers crossed on all fronts.