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Sunday, January 30, 2011

Empty your Pockets

It's a Sunday morning on the coast and the clouds make their way to shore.  The smell of rain is in the air and the cleansing should come soon.  Being the over thinker has my brain working overdrive and the off button seems to be stuck.  The dryer bustles in the background and the smell of dryer sheets is instantly calming.  The sound of a flute joining the piano soothes my indecisive temperament while the perilous nature of uncertainty makes it's own assessment.  Birds take flight in unison and my puppy let's me love him.  The to-do list grows a mind of it's own and you wonder why everything takes so long.  You go out of your way to make things right but the light won't turn green and the traffic can get backed up for miles.  No one can let you down if you don't allow them to hold you up.  Another birthday comes and goes and breakfast isn't ready yet.  The iambic pentameter tries to find me today and that's okay.  We have come a long way from pictograms and it's just another day.  History has a way of repeating itself if you let it in while breaking the binds of pattern can release you from sin.  A society based in what's it all for and how far have we really come?  Are you willing to join your mirror or are you still wondering where you're from?  Sometimes a self inflicted lullaby can set you free as if you were a new found miracle left out for the world to see.  Dr. Seuss had it right when he found the Wocket in his pocket and in closing he let us know... "I don't care if you believe it.  And I hope we never leave it".

Friday, January 28, 2011

Ace of Hearts


To my King of Hearts… Masquerade hearts don't keep from getting broken and what we dwell on becomes our identity. I don't want to wear it anymore.  A wink. A smile. A laugh. Emotions on my sleeve and I feel I'm torn in half. Is there a happily ever after in the land of effervescent rainbows? Paintings find me peaceful and I welcome the quiet. I try to gather my thoughts but am easily distracted. A Carpathian novel and I will not settle. The hazel eyes of a wolf intrigue me. Come for me. The statue of a woman who stands on her own. Flowers on a table and I feel so far from home. Nothing left to be forgotten and you're looking through Oscar Wildes memory. I'm trying to listen to my life that has so much to say. Can you unravel me? Hunger finds me vulnerable and I feel shy. It calls out to you. I'm not sure why. Dance with me barefoot and kiss my mouth. Waterfall lyrics reveal me. What's this? A coin in a wishing well, one I must have missed. Once upon a time of fascination. A glimpse. A tingle. A Breath. No more disguise. Just a girl with kaleidescope eyes.


Your...  Queen of Hearts.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Self Indulgence

Moon shadows flowers bloom and I am smiling.  The night falls and stars fill my sky.  Sleep comes to find me and I welcome it willingly. A soft gentle kiss on my cheek and I blush.  The peaceful wonderments of a life worth listening to.  A speciality in motion and a secret crush, a shared laugh and it's a distant memory.  Glistening eyes and I am naive and vulnerable.  Give me something to think about.  Make me laugh.  And I'll giggle. A ride on a rail train.  You drink my shirley temple and I'll eat the ice.  Everything is valuable and we should stop to smell the flowers.  Make a wish.  A night in shining armor and dreams of a kiss.  A moment long gone but now I've found my smirk.  A lesson learned and I've broken the lineage.  A new past is set in motion and I won't look back.  Not attracted to that which I can't have.  Skipping along my journey, my own yellow brick road.  I feel set free.  I've found the butterfly in me.  Forever.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

A Subtle Touch

As the voice in you touches me... I speak

                                     As your words touch my mind.... I open

As your fingers touch my flesh... I weaken

                                     As your body touches mine... I lengthen

As your lips touch mine... I soften

                                     As the life in you touches me... I live

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Time Travel

Here I am again... knowing there is no catching up to the time that passes, but finding my way to my words again.  I can't go back.  It's been months since my last blog entry and I won't be able to call for a do over.  What's done is done.

But it's not about what we haven't done or what we didn't do.  It's about all the things that we can find that we can appreciate about life and about ourselves and for every thing big or small that we are thankful for.  All the things that we can create that lay ahead of us.  I have to look at the traveled pavement as I view the sky.  With wonder.  I have been through so many ups and downs made so many wrong turns but I hold tight to my optimistic nature and put one foot in front of the other.

I just came off a big travel job and I find myself spent with exhaustion.  And somehow the emptying out of all my energy finds me open-minded and full of clarity.  In the peace and quiet I have found my spirit and my ethereal approach to that which I love most...  Wondering, pondering, and daydreaming.  My indisputable love for that which I can't control but love to question.

There have been many challenging moments and I haven't always made the right choices, but I learn.  I choose to learn and be humble and open and forthcoming.

If we let it... time will teach us our most valuable lessons... We will learn to travel through our lives embracing the answers hidden in the adversity, the answers shining in our good fortune and the answers kneeling before us in humility.

There are a lot of things in my life that I don't have but courage isn't one of them and I am realizing that of all things I have learned in my travels a little courage can go a long way in teaching us how to rise above any situation.

I don't have much practice with dating so I am not very good at it but I have decided to feel the fear and do it anyway.  If I don't date then the man of my dreams out there somewhere looking for me may never find me.

I don't know if anyone will read the book I am writing but if one person embraces it and it helps them live a better life then every hour spent writing every word will have been worth it.

I dont' know if the company I am launching is going to be a huge success but if I am able to get it off the ground at all then I know I accomplished something else I can be proud of.

I don't know what tomorrow holds but I know what I have today and I choose to embrace myself, share with strangers, and show love to my friends as my friends show to me.

I don't know much but I do know that one person can make a big difference one person at a time.  A little love travels a long way.

What are you doing with your time?

Words on Screen & Words on Paper

  • Blink, Malcolm Gladwell
  • Casablanca (1942)
  • Chocolat (2000)
  • Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, Susan Jeffer, Ph.D.
  • Harold and Maude (1971)
  • Invictus (2009)
  • On The Waterfront (1954)
  • Singin in the Rain (1952)
  • The Celestine Prophecy, James Redfield
  • The Four Agreements, Miguel Ruiz
  • The Greatest Salesman in the World, Og Mandino
  • The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle
  • The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success, Deepak Chopra
  • The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
  • The Tao of Pooh, Benjamin Hoff
  • The Wizard of Oz (1939)
  • West Side Story (1961)
  • What Happy People Know, Dan Baker

Listening

  • Use Somebody, Kings of Leon
  • You're Beautiful, James Blunt
  • Love, Love, Love, Tristan Prettyman
  • Just Fine, Mary J. Blige
  • Banana Pancakes, Jack Johnson
  • You and Me, Dave Matthews
  • Just Breathe, Pearl Jam